What up doe!
I’m back on this blog after a long hiatus.
I started writing on here back in January, because I was unemployed and needed something constructive to work on. I also enjoyed the accountability and structure that came from publicly writing about my goals, and the satisfaction that came from creating something regularly. When the job search was going poorly (and oh boy was it going poorly in January), it was nice to have something that was entirely in my control and didn’t depend on my resume being picked out of a stack of a 1,000. I was also hoping that if I did some cool stuff on my blog, that I could talk about it in interviews.
But a few things happened that caused my posts to drop off:
- I got a job! This is by far the most exciting development. I don’t have as much time to write because I’m working full-time
- I wasn’t sure the direction I wanted to take this blog. Do I want this to be professional? Personal? Do I want to make this into something a lot of people read? Is it mostly just for me and whoever wants to ride along? Or do I want to just focus on updating myself and my friends? I felt like it was easier to cut down on posting until I had an idea of the direction I wanted to take
- Related to the prior point – someone read the blog! When I started posting on here, I didn’t actually expect anyone to read it. I had a link to this blog in my Instagram bio, and it’s linked on hiddn.co (which is the first result for my name), so it was fair game. But someone I had only recently met called me out on being too hard on myself from things I had posted on this blog, and it made me think about the nature of this medium. Am I too hard on myself (probably)? Or does this blog, which is only a portion of my life, give the impression that I’m too hard on myself (also potentially true)? It made me (over)think about how I present myself on this blog, which made me more anxious about posting.